finally, i had deactivated my facebook account. why? lot of logical and non logical reasons.
firstly, i want to focus on my studying without knowing what happen to the others thru fB.
secondly, i want to live my life with my family and closed friends ONLY. let me list them:
a) the family roots of Almarhum Ismail Abu Bakar
b) my closest friends; farahidayu,ilmihayyani,nurraihan,ainaanabila,nuruladibah.
sometimes i wondered " Why life can't be as easy and simple as ABC?"
well, there are UPs and DOWNs. have to get thru the all the fights,sadness,sickness and lot more.
why it has to be like that?
but, things do happen for a reason. maybe it is a test of Iman..
i do believe that one day people will have a pleasant life.
the reason why i din put my sister's name is, yeaa, u know why..
sometimes i wondered why "someone" always try to be like my sister. she copied all my sister's attitude just to make me feel jealousy towards her and think negatively that she is enjoying and having fun with my sister. i don't know why i keep thinking negatively. suddenly, we had a huge fight that cause us won't contact each other. do siblings have to be jealous with one another? well, i can't answer it.. still finding the answer.
even it is hard to leave and be apart with my big sis, i will still pray for her happiness and enjoyment of life. may Allah always fulfill her dreams.
" Ya Allah..Kau panjangkanlah umur kakak ku, murahkanlah rezekinya. Kau berkatilah hidupnya didunia dan letakkan lah dia di tempat orang yang soleh dan solehah. Ya Allah.. kau balas lah segala jasa dan pengorbanan yang telah dia lakukan untuk ku, hanya Engkau sahaja yang berhak memberi pembalasan samada baik atau buruk kepada hambaMu di muka bumi ini. Ya Allah..jika suatu hari nanti aku tidak sempat meminta maaf kepada kakak ku, kau ampunilah dosa ku Ya Allah. Kau temukanlah jodoh yang baik untuknya dan janganlah Engkau mendekatnya kepada musuh-musuh yang ingin menjatuhkannya.Amin Ya Rabbal Alamin.."
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