thing is getting harder. i don't know how long it will takes to reach the end. everything is a ruin. all those plan i made just for my happiness is a ruin. it is all a ruin. each day, i never had a chance just to be sincerely happy with anybody. yes, im faking smiles, pretend to be okay when i am not. why it is hard to make ppl understand me? why is it so hard for me to get what i want in my life? everybody keep burden me and i don't know how to bear this anymore. i burst into tears everyday and never stop dreaming when it will reach the happiest day of my life again. i hate everyone. i hate everybody that i know. i hate all of them. if they love me, they won't burden me into so many things. i really want to focus on my studying but why there's no one who wants to support me. i miss my dad ); he was always there to give motivational and inspiration to never look back. but now, i was left at the back where it is not the right position for me. hesitation felt every day in my life now. sorrowful, loneliness and it remains silence..