this entry is especially for my mothers yang selama ni banyak berkorban. when i sat alone then something came up in my mind. seriously, i do feel bad towards my family.
this couple weeks, i'd been through some ups and downs. seriously it was very exhausting. sangat sangat. u know how seksa to fight with your own mother? okay that's it. tak tahu laa siapa yang salah kan tapi last last i realized that that's my fault. of course with my unpredictable behaviors.
okay here's the story. so, one day, i had a huge fight with my big sister and we came up to pulang pulang things we gave to each other tau. sampai macam tu sekali. so this one unpleasant evening, i came to my sis' homey and pulang her diary. okay ni memang adat adik beradik laa kan, siblings kita memang shareshare diary. how sweet. then dekat dalam tu kalau ada ape benda nak confess then confess kat dalam tuu je. and kita take turn to write the diary. okay so back to the topic. after dah pulang, then she pulang balik. okay memang devastating laa kan kalau dah bagi then dia pulang balik memang tak boleh macam tu! haha :D okay coincidentally, tomorrow-nya starts my mid year exam. okay memang agak devastating kuasa dua laa kan. kadangkadang fikirfikir balik it is not the right time to fight. dah laa nak exam. so bila jadi macam tu, memang upset sangat sampai susah nak focus for exam. tapi alhamdulillah Allah guides me.
then after the exam, i am currently dah baik dengan my sister. u know right air dicincang tak akan putus. but then my mum starts questioning betul ke dah baik? sedangkan we had a huge fight. yea kali ni my mum knew sebab i am really having a break down sampai selerakkan bilik dah macam kapal karam. then i played with knife. then i smashed my mirror. okay tu memang dah break down. sampai tak turun makan for 2-3 days. how bad is that? okay shush~ then bila dah baik, my mum pelik. then start laa this fight. memang tak ada kesudahan sungguh. tapi at last when my mum called my mak and told everything, then my mak nasihat me. seriously i've never been through anything like this before. it touched my heart sampai sekarang tak baik-baik. haha:D then, i apologize to my mum and my mak. i am very grateful to have both of them as my mum. they are simply superb.
so apabila semua dah settle, i slept at my mak's house. and di situ lah happy endingnya. But, still, i am very sorry to my both mums yang selama ni tak pernah dengar cakap. i will try to be a good daughter untuk both mi and mak. p/s: i am really sorry.
okay next entry is for my sisters. setelah semua ni berlaku of course kak aishah is the mangsa kan? so i am very dorry for what i did and i will try to be a good adik. also to my other kakak, kak fiza and kak farah, sorry hari tu tak dapat tengok Nur Kasih together because of this complication.
to kak fiza, sorry selama ni kita selalu kacau kak fiza. bila gaduh dengan kak aishah, kak fiza tempat ngadu. sorry for always burdening u atas semua salah kita. and i promise kita tak kan kacau kak fiza lagi and kita try hadapi semua ni sorang. p/s: i am really sorry.
next is to my sweetsweet boyfriend, Corby. hmm, sorry i ruin u and broke u into pieces. huaaa, menyesal sungguh. tak sangka this thing would happen. p/s: i am really sorry.